Thoughts on the decade.

This decade: 1. I wrote books. 2. Spearheaded werewolf in Singapore urban fantasy. 3. Wrote YA. 4. Fire Heart. 5. Taught students (and might go back to teaching again). Yeah, I survived. 😀

And I wrote werewolf in space space opera too! Take that, sff snobs! (that’s no. 6) 7. I lived through medical scares, ops and stuff. I am tenacious!

Adding on: my writery trajectory is different from others. The key thing to note is that you shouldn’t compare yourself to others. Paths are often determined by privilege (or lack of it), opportunity (or lack of it), access (tied to the first two factors) (or lack of it).

I don’t fit “normal” norms of writery “success”. It’s time we relook at how we define success. At the beginning, I thought getting a lit agent and big book deal was the Thing. At the end, all changed. I couldn’t afford to sacrifice my health to a false life.

A false life composed of fawning, back-scratching, ladderism and throwing people under the bus. That’s just NOT me. 45 means living life honestly and truthfully. Not lying, not throwing people under just to achieve that seat at that table.

Happy Holidays and Dong Zhi!



A Yule Poem

As we head

toward a new


Let us be without fear.

Courage, bright

as the rising sun,

Let us face it as one.



Thank goodness it’s Dec!

In a way, I am glad that November is over and 2019 is almost done. 
So, what do I have in store for you?
1. Yule Mice!
2. Dong Zhi/Winter Solstice!
3. Stuff (still in planning!)


I am taking November and December off – as in I am going on a writing hiatus. Will still work on necessary things (editorial, contract), but otherwise, will be resting more.

Possible burnout: I am experiencing lapses. The medical issues and anxiety meds have done a number.

November thinkery

Also posted on my Twitter as part of my happy-making thread, but I think this warrants its own post. I just attended a clan gathering to celebrate a matriarch’s 100th birthday so I met relatives I never knew I had. 

Family is also history. Not the state-sanctioned narratives but the ties of time, blood and land that bind us together. Plus the silences that are saying a lot.

I think talking about our histories is both sad- and happy-making. We talked about the Japanese Occupation and how it impacted our lives (our families etc) and how it lingers even now. The elders didn’t talk about it because the memories are *painful*. Three years and 8 months.

I am digesting a lot at the moment. And it’s happy-making, bittersweet. And how I think it ties in with the fight against fake news and how narratives can really affect people’s thinking. And how histories can be so cold and detached with certain agendas – but talk to a witness and you get how personal, how powerful and how deeply raw it is to them. People can so easily demonise and vilify a person… but that person is also a loved one to someone else.

Why is it happy-making, when omg Joyce it’s so depressing? Because as a trained historian and a history teacher, this clicks for me and resonates deep. We forget we are all messy, all problematic and very very human. But sure, we like to categorise people into Good or Bad.


November: the month of going-within

Happy Halloween and Blessed Samhain. 
Happy November! What’s in store for this month that I call “the month of going-within”? 
1. I will be away for a clan gathering in the first weekend of November.
2. Samhain/All Souls’/All Saints’.
3. Working on Book Two of YA fantasy (this will be my Nano project – editing/writing/rewriting).
4. Field guide/Glossary.
5. Maybe a Walking The Equator Dream card draw for Patrons and non-Patrons. 
6. More art. 

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